A Fresh Start

So, my last post was officially over two years ago. Pretty darn pathetic. I have changed, a lot. And my life has changed, a lot. And there is no way I can fully update this blog of mine because that would take about a billion years, plus I would have to remember everything and that would make my head hurt. All I can say is that I've grown. I know what it feels like to be scared. I know what it feels like to lose someone. I know how to make hard decisions. But I also know what it feels like to be happy. I have an incredibly strong testimony of the gospel of my church. And I have formed a very tight bond with my family. The last two years have not been the best of my life, but I am forever grateful for the people, experiences, and emotions I have come across whether good or bad, because without them I would not be the person I am today. And you know, I am pretty awesome.
Here is what is going on in my life right this very moment! You might be lucky enough to get the full story's later, maybe.

I am going to my local community college doing my pre-requisites for nursing school! It is super exciting. I have found that I need to keep myself very motivated to succeed. And that having the flu during finals week is the worst thing, ever.

I am working as a waitress at a retirement home, Merrill Gardens. It is very stressful but I love it! The people are fantastic and I love getting to know them. I am horrible at names, so I know maybe 5 out of the 300 who live there. But I do know 60% of their drink orders! And I can carry my food tray on one arm now, so I must be gaining muscle. So I'm pretty proud of myself.

My 15 year old sister Paige is in a two week long Pain Rehabilitation program at the Seattle Children's Hospital. In the past year and a half every single thing physically that can possibly go wrong has gone wrong for her. It has been very hard on everyone in the family, but to be honest no one knows how Paige handles everything so well. She is a very happy girl! She loves pink, writing songs, and at the moment grape juice.

I have the best family. My dad wakes me up for seminary (6 AM class) and keeps my white work shirts clean (I make that extremely difficult, trust me.) My mom is one of my best friends and I tell her everything, and I mean everything. She probably wants to duct tape my mouth shut constantly. Paige is the strongest person I know and I love her to death. Lilly is a weirdo who makes all of us laugh, and she is really good at doing my hair. Sam loves to talk to us about nerdy things none of us understand of course. And Sarah is our little angel that is sometimes really hard to handle, but she is the most lovable little thing ever. And she sneaks into my bed to sleep a lot, which I secretly think is super cute.

I have two best friends, Elisabeth and Sean. Elisabeth is my age and we are basically twins. There is no other explanation for our identical brains. Seriously. We go to school together and freak everyone out together of course. She is my person. Like if I needed to murder someone in the middle of the night she would be the person I would call to help me drag the dead body into the lake, and she would do it too. And then the next day we would probably both tell our mom's because we tend to do that, but we would be in jail together so it would be okay. If you can't tell, we have previously discussed this because we are that cool.
And then there's Sean, he is a boy. And I kinda like him a lot. And he is kind, hilarious, quirky, and he kinda likes me too. It's a win-win kind of situation. My family has adopted him into the family over the last two years, and I think they might even like him more than I do. He is Sarah's "lovebug" and the only person who understands Sam. Lilly more than tolerates him, which is seriously saying something. And he is the only boy Paige will willingly hug, which is basically a miracle. Oh and my parents love him, they even trust him most of the time! He takes me on dates and rubs my feet when my mom gives him permission (kidding, kinda.) and brings me ice cream and chocolate when I have my daily mental breakdowns (again, kidding, kinda.) and I think he might even be used to how incredibly insane I am and how I cry all the time, maybe. So he's basically perfect, it's pretty awesome.

Sometimes I sit back and suddenly realize that life is happening, and it's going by way too fast. Those TV shows that I "used" to be obsessed with, yeah I am the age of those characters now. It's pretty scary. And I don't want to forget the little moments, or the big ones. So I'm going to motivate myself and start writing again, I love this little blog of mine and I want to be able to look back and remember these things whenever I want. So here we go, it's a fresh start!

 

Quote Of The Day

Today's quote is my motivation to keep writing on this blog. Because he's right, I have plenty of time.

"Don't say you don't have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Helen Keller, Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Mother Teresa, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein."
-H. Jackson Brown, Jr.